Leaves are already falling? Like..Whaat? Apples are rotten and leaves are changing their color and falling. How is this possible? It isn't even September yet. frustrating.

I wonder why crushes are calles"crushes"? Maybe it's because they always find a way to crush you. Mentally I mean. My point is that it has happened again. I can't stop thinking about my crush and it drives me crazy. It's like staring at a wall and doing nothing. NOTHING. GOD! my head is blank. No thoughts. Zip.

Ok, I'll just try to start writing again altough I'm not sure how I'll do, but I'll try . Today I finally took a hold of myself and my goal is to become a real person. Today I woke up at 8 o'clock and went rollersketing. It felt great after. I am tired of being someone I'm not and doing things I don't want to by humiliating myself constantly and feeling shitty after. Few days ago I discovered that my cat drinks from the aquarium. And taht's not all - she also catches fish from there too. Luckily she is not a good fisher and my fish are alive. The weather is soggy and aweful. No mood to go out and play. Let's hope tomorrow's a better day